A Flint of Fear and Sadness

Wednesday, February 17, 2010 |

Today i was home unusually early and i truly intend to have a little fun in this benefit but fun turned out sadness and anxiety. I have come to realize that maybe this is God's calling. I should be lucky. For a few hours now, i had been silent and i kept consoling myself of a phrase that might seem simple for others. "Fortunate are those prepared for death".. Really..

So, when i saw a sign should i be happy? should i be overjoyed to be fortunate, every one is going there anyhow and i know its just a matter of time..But I am not a hypocrite. I know I am not ready..

This day i promised myself one thing i will live my life to the fullest and fulfill my purpose. For God and God alone.